life.
And then - 2am.
Moreover, you told everybody you had to
go home right after work,
and you didn't drink even a drop this evening
because everybody knew you had to be home on time
and nobody even offered you.
There as such good situation...
or on the contrary - very serious, unpleasant,
in short - some business, and when you had a look at the watch
it was 11:30pm already and there was no use
to phone home and say:
"i'm finishing soon with my collegues, put [food] on the stove."
No. And without any hurry...2am.
You come...staircase, your door...
you looked in your pockets and, of course, keys are left at home.
At first you knocked gently...
hoping that somebody will wake up and open,
that person which is home instead of you.
Then you knocked harder.
And then...rang the bell.
And you hear everybody is awakend.
Something is being dropped down and someone with heavy steps
comes to door, door opens,
your sweetheart is standing there...or your mother...
drowsy...or your sweet mom, I don't know what you have there.
And: come in, come in, don't stand there, come in.
And you: there were such things today! if I told you...
but tomorrow, I've already talked to boss that tomorrow home right after work
we'll talk everything over and there will be no need to warm over food.
And she says to you: you're drunk...
You say: me? today - not a drop today.
and you do like this - "not a drop"
and you understood that moment you did it like a drunken man,
like a man who's drunk and who's trying to show
by easiness of his movements he's not drunk at all.
And [she says to you] - Ah! you look like a swine.
there's no use talking with you, go to sleep, let's talk tomorrow...
have a good night's sleep and we'll talk afterwards.
You say: I didn't drink even a drop...!
And you understand yourself you shouldn't have done that
because that makes serious accusation of being drunk,
and you say: let's sort it out?
You understand - only heavy drunk people do that.
And you will really go to sleep. Moreover, you understand you do
everything like a drunk person, the more you do, the worse it gets.
And that's a pity! You won't prove anything in the morning.
Or...
you are being woken up in the morning...
well, not exactly that you're being woken up, rather you awake yourself
a minute before you must be woken up.
You're not old, you're a sixth-grader.
You wake up in the morning and to
feel more precisely what does that mean,
you wake up
and it's winter, morning.
That is, it's dark outside the window because it's winter and morning.
And 'till nearest holidays...
because previous ones are over just now.
You woke up and you're both sleeping and not sleeping.
You listen to what's going on in the house, you hear your parents
walking around, doing something in the kitchen, clattering of dishes
water being turned on and off, banging of fridge door...
radio is turned on, these jolly morning songs...
You're thinking...they're doing something there and you think:
they're doing something and that's nice, perhaps they will forget to wake me up today.
And you hear: they haven't forgotten.
They come to wake you up.
It's not a long way to go but you have enough time to make your most
pitiful face...like this...
face that means: it's sleeping angel and one is not allowed to wake him up
otherwise it will fly away.
But they came in, didn't look at the face
didn't look at the wings which are on your back,
just switched the light on and went away!
And this electrical light fell over you, and even though your
eyelids are closed, it gets through.
Then you opened eyes and everything dropped over you,
furthermore, in all the smallest details:
wallpaper, polished wardrobe
your fingerprints and scratches on the polish,
lightbulb reflects in the polish and that's worst of all.
Farther there's writing-table, window
Curtains are not completely closed, and through between the curtains
you can see it's dark