afraid.
Remember, yesterday i wanted to tell you
about Lizaveta. So now i've come to tell.
So you said it seriously yesterday?
How do you know?
I know.
Is he found?
No, he isn't.
So how do you know about it?
Guess.
Why are you scaring me?
So can you guess then?
No! No!
Take a good look.
Have you guessed?
Lord!
That's enough, Sonya. Don't torment me.
What have you done to yourself!
You're weird, Sonya. You don't remember yourself.
There's no one unhappier than you in the whole world!
So you won't leave me now, Sonya?
No, no. Never and nowhere.
I will go with you. I will go anywhere. I will go to penal servitude!
Lord! Why didn't you come earlier?
Maybe, Sonya, i don't want
to go to penal servitude yet.
How could you decide on this?
To rob her. Stop it, Sonya!
How come? You give your everything,
but to rob her? Lord!
The money you gave Katerina Ivanovna...
No, that's not that money, don't worry, Sonya.
This money mother sent me.
But that money...i even don't know
if there was any money.
Eh, Sonya! I only killed a louse -
useless, dirty, malignant!
This human was a louse?
I know that no louse.
I'm all in all lying, Sonya!
There's completely different reasons.
My head aches very badly.
My heart is evil, consider that,
it can explain much!
Yes! Assume better that i'm evil,
envious, foul, hostile, self-loving,
and, let's say, finally also
insanity: all vices!
I said to you i could't support myself.
Do you know that i could?
I got angry and didn't want to.
Like a spider i squeezed myself into corner.
Didn't come out for days. Just lied
and thought. Always kept asking myself.
And i understood, Sonya,
that men will never get any wiser.
And i realized they have only one law:
who dares the most - that rules over them!
All it takes is to dare, do you understand?
I suddely saw it as clear as the sun.
To lean over and take the power!
I wanted to dare, and i killed. Here's all reason.
Keep silent! You've went away from God!
By the way, when i was laying and thinking there
in the darkness - that was devil instigating me, wasn't it?
Don't laugh! You don't understand a thing!
I'm not laughing at all, Sonya.
I know it all, i was then thinking it all over.
I suffered all anguish of that chit-chat:
about career, about Napoleon...and how then
got fed up with it! I wanted to forget it all
and start all over again!
No, i didn't kill, Sonya, to help my mother -
that's nonsense!
I didn't kill to take power and become
benefactor of humanity - twaddle!
I simply killed, killed for myself,
for myself alone!
For yourself?
I simply wanted
to know sooner whether i'm a louse or a man?
Can i step over or can i not?
Am i just trembling creature of have i the right?
That is, to kill? Have you the right to kill?
Eh, Sonya! I wanted to tel you this one think:
devil dragged me there, and later he explained
i had no right to go there, that i'm a louse
as anybody else. Did i really murder old lady?
I murdered myself not the old lady.
Just so - and promtly killed for all time!
And devil killed this old hag, not me.
Enough, Sonya, enough! Let me alone!
What to do now?
What to do? Get up!
Go now, right this minute, stand on the crossroads,
kiss the ground you have desecrated,
after that bow before the whole world, to all
four courners of the world, and say loudly:"I have murdered!"
Then God will send life for you again!
Will you go?
Will you go?
You're talking about penal sevitude, Sonya, aren't you?
Do i need to denounce myself, Sonya?
To take suffering on yourself, to
redeem yourself with it, that is needed.
No, Sonya. I won't go to them.
And how will you live? Is that even possible?
How will you talk with your mother? Lord!
What am i [thinking]! You've left your mother!
How to live without a fellow man?
Don't be childish!
Why go? What guild have i
before them?
They themselves harass millions of people,
and moreover count that as good deeds.
They're