every minute in her frenzy that she doesn't admit going she was the victim of others, the victim of a depraved and wicked. But whatever she may say to you, believe me, she's the first to disbelieve it. And to believe with her whole conscience that she's to blame. When l tried to dispel that gloomy delusion, it threw her into such misery that my heart will always ache. She ran away from me. Do you know what for? Simply to show me that she was a degraded creature. But the most awful thing because she had an irresistible inner craving for to do something shameful, so as to say, to herself at once. ''There, you've done something shameful again, so you're a degraded creature! Perhaps yon won't understand this, Aglaya. Do you know that in that continual consciousness of shame there is perhaps a sort of awful, unnatural enjoyment for her, a sort of revenge on someone. You saw her yesterday. Do you think she's happy with that company? Did you ever then preach her such ... sermons? No. No, l hardly ever spoke. l loved her. l loved her very much, but afterwards, afterwards she guessed it all. What did she guess? That l only pitied her, that l don't love her anymore. And do you know she writes letters to me almost every day? - Than it's true! -Yes, it's true! And do you know, what she writes to me in these letters? l shouldn't be surprised at anything. She's insane. Here are the letters. She's been beseeching me to marry you. She writes that you love me. That you used to talk about me then. That only l can make you happy. That she tries every day to get a chance of seeing me eves in the distance. She writes so wildly, so strangely. l haven't shown her letters to anyone, l've been waiting for you. Do you know what this means? lt's madness, a proof of her insanity. You're not crying now, are you? No, Aglaya, l'm not crying. What am l to do about it? l can't go on getting these letters. Oh, leave her alone, l'll do all l can to prevent her writing to you. Then you're a man of no heart! How can you have noticed everything in her and not have seen that. She loves you, only you. What these letters mean? lt's jealousy, it's more than jealousy! She'd kill herself the day after our wedding! God knows, that to make her l would give up my life, Aglaya. l can't love her now, and she knows it. Then sacrifice yourself, it's just in your line. You're such a charitable person. No, l can't sacrifice myself like that. But l know with me she'll be lost, we'll both come to ruin. We did talk about you then. But that's abnormal here, thats everything here is abnormal. How? You could talk to her about me? So that's true? So. How could you tell me -Aglaya. Recently you told me -Aglaya. And how could you care for me, When you had only seen me at once? l don't know. l don't know. ln my darkness then l dreamed l had a new dawn. l don't know how l thought of you. All that from the horror then. l shouldn't have come here for three years. Then you've come for her sake? Yes, for her sake. lf you believe, that that... your woman is insane, l've nothing to do with her instane fancies. l beg you, Lef Nicolaievitch, to take these three letters and fling them back to her from me. And if she dares write me a single line again, l'll complain to my father, and have her put into a Hose of Correction. You can't think like that. lt's not true. lt's the truth! lt's the truth! What's the truth? What truth? lt's the truth, that l love Gavrila Ardalionovitch l'm going to run away from home with him tomorrow. Are you glad? ls your curiosity satisfied? No, my friend, please, don't you go away. You'll be so good as to give me an explanation. What have l done to be so worried? l've been awake all night as it is. Don't imagine, my good friend, that l brought you here to cross-examine you. After what happened yesterday l might well not have been ------------------------------ Читайте также: - текст Зеркало на английском - текст Руслан и Людмила на английском - текст Терминатор на английском - текст Сети зла на английском - текст 1984 на английском |