much warmer than abroad. But there it's warmer outside. A Russian can't live in their houses until he gets accustomed - Don't they heat them? - They do. But the houses and stoves are different to ours. -Were you away for long? - Four years. But l was in just one place - in the country. You must have forgotten what life's like here. But l hardly knew it before. And now they say so much has changed here. There's a lot of talk about courts. Yes, that's true enough. - How's the law over there? - l don't know. l've heard much good about our courts. And there's no capital punishment here. - ls there over there? -Yes. l saw an execution in France, in Lyons. - Do they hang there? - No, they cut off the heads. - Do they yell? - No, it's done in an instant. They put a man in a frame, and a wide knife, it's called a guillotine, falls with force and weight. The head springs off so quickly, in a wink of an eye. But the preparations are dreadful. You know, they announced the sentence to him, tied his hands, prepared him, took him up the scaffold. lmagine what must've been going on in his mind. What convulsions his spirit must have endured. An outrage on the soul, that's what it was. lt is said 'Thou shall not kill' but must he to be killed for murder? No! lt is not right! l saw the sight a month ago, and it's before my eyes this very moment. Saw it in my dreams 5 times. lt's a good thing there's no pain, when the head flies off. Look! You made the remark now, didn't you? Everyone says the same thing! Everyone notices it! That's what the guillotine is made for! And then a thought came to my head. What if it makes things worse? You know, if you take torture. You suffer pain, bodily pain. lt distracts you from emotional suffering. You suffer bodily pain until you die. Here the most terrible part is not in the bodily pain, but the certain knowledge that in an hour, then in 10 minutes, then in half a minute, then now, this very instant your soul will leave your body and you'll no longer be a man. And that is certain, that's the main thing. When you place your head under that knife and hear the iron grate over your head, that quarter of a second is worst of all. lt is not my fantasy, many people said the same. l feel it so deeply that l'll tell you what l think. To execute a man for murder if an immeasurably worse punishment, than fits the crime. A murder by sentence is far more dreadful, than committed by a criminal. A man who is attacked by robbers hopes he can escape. Until the very last moment. ln some cases a man hopes on even when his throat is cut. Or runs away, or begs for mercy. But here this last hope, with which it's much easier to die, is taken away, for certain, there's the sentence. That certainty must be the worst anguish. And there's nothing worse than that anguish. Our Lord Christ spoke of this anguish. No man should be treated so. lf you are really so anxious for a smoke, it might be managed. See the door there, under the stairs? But be quick. - Cold? -Very. l never thought it would be so cold here. - Been abroad? -Yes, from Switzerland. My goodness! l was there for my health. What kind of malady? A nervous malady, a kind of epilepsy, convulsive spasms. -Were you cured? - No, they didn't cure me. Stumped up your money for nothing, and we believe them. Gospel truth. Gospel truth. All they do is take hold of our Russian money free. Oh, you're quite wrong in my particular instance! l can't argue because l know only my particular case, but my doctor gave me money for my return journey and kept me at his own expense for nearly 2 years. Was there no one else to pay for you? No, Mr. Pavlicheff, who had been supporting me there, died 2 year ago. l wrote here to Mrs. General Epanchin, a distant relative of mine, but she didn't answer. So eventually l came back. Whom
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