certainly seem much more depressed today... ...than you did when we first saw you. Pardon? Last week, when we first saw you, you were kidding and laughing. Did you ever get her the flowers? Crazy job they gave me. But if I wasn't doing it, someone else would be. And they might get it wrong. They might set Arctor up, plant drugs on him and collect a reward. Better it be me, despite the disadvantages. Just protecting everyone from Barris is justification in itself. What the hell am I talking about? I must be nuts. I know Bob Arctor. He's a good person. He's up to nothing. At least, nothing too bad. In fact, he works for the Orange County Sheriff's Office covertly... ... which is probably why Barris is after him. But that wouldn't explain... ... why the Orange County Sheriff's Office is after him. Something big is definitely going down in this house. This rundown, rubble-filled house... ... with its weed-patch yard... ... and cat box that never gets emptied. What a waste of a truly good house. So much could be done with it. A family and children could live here. It was designed for that. Such a waste. They ought to confiscate it and put it to better use. I'm supposed to act like they aren't here. Assuming there's a "they" at all. It may just be my imagination. Whatever it is that's watching... ... it's not human... ... unlike little dark-eyed Donna. It doesn't ever blink. What does a scanner see? Into the head? Down into the heart? Does it see into me, into us? Clearly or darkly? I hope it sees clearly, because I can't any longer see into myself. I see only murk. I hope for everyone's sake the scanners do better. Because if the scanner sees only darkly, the way I do... ... then I'm cursed and cursed again. And we'll only wind up dead this way... ... knowing very little and getting that little fragment wrong too. You show what we regard... ...more as competition phenomenon than impairment. Yeah? Competition between the left and the right hemispheres of your brain. It's like you have two signals that interfere with each other... ...by carrying conflicting information. It's as if you have two fuel gauges on your car. They're studying the same amount of fuel... ...but one says your tank is full, the other registers empty. They can't both be right. And you as the driver have only an indirect relationship to the fuel tank... ...via the gauges. So, what does all this mean? Well, I'm sure you know already. You've been experiencing it without knowing why or what it is. Two hemispheres of my brain... ...are competing? - Yes. - Yes. But why? Substance D. It often causes that, functionally, and this is what the tests confirm. Damage has taken place to the normally dominant left hemisphere... ...and the right hemisphere is attempting to compensate. Crosscutting, we call it... ...related to split-brain phenomenon. We could perform a right hemispherectomy... ...but I'd... Will this ever go away? Probably. It's a functional impairment. It may be organic damage. It may be permanent. Time will tell, and only after you've been off Substance D for a long while. I'll never take Substance D again for the rest of my life. How much are you taking now? Not much. More, recently, because of job stress. Death is swallowed up in victory. Behold, I tell you the sacred secret now: You shall not all sleep in death. We'll do the other half of Southern California tomorrow night. The Air Force arsenal at Vandenberg ------------------------------ Читайте также: - текст Сёстры Мунэката на английском - текст Сибирский цирюльник на английском - текст Звёздный Путь на английском - текст Новый мир на английском - текст Флетч жив на английском |