size bitch session?
Yeah, l've heard.
Well, they sent us
an invitation
to send a delegation.
You're it.
Do you mind?
(D'Anna)
No, no. Go ahead.
We're in.
l'm not exactly
the most popular guy
in the fleet right now.
Well, it'll be good then,
to let your cutters know that
you're not afraid of them.
That what you think?
l've been hiding?
What the hell is
going on here, Bill?
You've been doing this
too long. We were worried
about ulterior motives.
You're going because
you're not afraid
and people should see that.
Plus, it'll also give people
a chance to
vent their feelings...
instead of seething
in private.
And finally,
l think you need a little R&R.
So consider this
mandatory shore leave.
Take a swim. Get some sleep.
Sir.
And...
stay away from the bar.
Three. There's three.
So, you got lots.
(Starbuck)
Good luck, Colonel.
Have fun on Cloud Nine.
You bet.
(hissing)
Initiating pre-flight.
What's going on?
Abort launch!
Everybody out, now!
(alarm blaring)
Everybody back.
Get back, now.
What's going on?
The main bus is totaled.
Looks like somebody
took a hammer to it.
lf this had blown in transit,
the cabin would have
vented to space.
Someone's trying to kill you,
Saul.
Comes with the stripes.
lt's because of
that damned Gideon incident.
Ellen, we don't know that.
Of course we do.
D'Anna Biers left
two messages already.
She's giving you the chance
to tell your side.
l don't have to
explain myself,
especially to her.
Roslin wants to
placate the fleet...
put the great Bill Adama
back on his pedestal.
The fastest way to do that
is by hanging you out to dry.
Why do you think Adama
wanted to send you
to Cloud Nine?
The Gideon happened
on my watch.
Yes.
But you didn't order
those jar-heads to open fire.
(sighing)
This is so like you, Saul.
Always the proud soldier,
taking the heat
because it's honorable.
When are you going to realize
we're all alone out here?
(sighing)
(D'Anna)
Are you afraid
when you go into combat?
First thing they tell you
is to assume
you're already dead.
Well,
that sounds ghoulish.
Yeah, maybe.
But dead men don't get scared
or freeze up under fire.
Me, l'm just worried
that hell's going to be
a lonely place...
and l'm gonna fill it up
with every toaster
son of a bitch l find.
What's been
the hardest for you?
They try to turn off the
human part of you because
that's what'll get you killed.
But when you're
out in the field,
it's not that easy.
Nothing's that easy.
(guard)
You got five minutes.
Sharon? lt's me.
Sharon!
Give me your light.
What the hell
are you talking about?
Give me your light, now.
Something's wrong.
Oh, gods. Call Dr. Cottle.
(Helo)
Now!
(crying)
(D'Anna)
Does that help you
cope with the stress?
Not really.
Look, all that l ever wanted
was to be an officer
on a Battlestar.
Okay, l trained my whole life,
trained harder
than anyone in my unit...
basically, l put my life
on hold until l was
assigned to Galactica.
Then the Cylons hit
and l realized that
this is all that l know.
Tech manuals, commands,
and tactics.
You know, l'm not saying
that l'm unhappy.
Just wondering if
there's something more.
And what have you
discovered?
l hate cigarettes.
(coughs)
Ambrosia's good with a chaser.
And if you have
enough ambrosia...
they don't really
hurt that much.
There you go.
We'll make this
as painless as possible.
Drink?
ls this an interview
or a cocktail party?
Are you kidding?
This is how we
keep it painless.
Just like to keep it casual,
that's all.
Please.
Cheers, Colonel.
Cheers.
Before we begin...
l had heard rumors that,
that you had death threats...
leveled against you.
ls that right?
This is a military vessel.
We have rumors
for every occasion.
Was it hard for you to
take over your friend's
command when he was shot?
l didn't take anything.
Command fell to me
and l did my duty.
But you were in
full command of