common stamp of worry, of soft-heartedness and of knowing that something momentous and incomprehensible was happening at that time. If God is merciful, no doctor would be needed. Princess, someone is coming. Up the driveway, with lanterns lighted. Must be the doctor. Thank God! I'll go out to meet him. He doesn't speak Russian. - Is the Princess well? - Very well. No, it can't be! It would be so incredible! There is a kind fate! Masha, my dear! Oh, darling... God is merciful. She was not surprised at seeing him there. She didn't understand that he had returned. His coming had nothing to do with her agony, nor with its relief. No, you're not allowed in. Why have they taken a baby in there? Why a baby? Has a baby been born? I loved you all. I did no harm to anyone. And now what have you done to me? What have you done? Oh, what have you done to me? And why? I can't begin to tell you what I've been through since then. Yes, we have all changed a great deal. - What are your plans? - My plans? What can I say? But why aren't you serving in the army? After Austerlitz? No, thank you very much. If Bonaparte were here, near Smolensk, I wouldn't serve in our army even then. - Did you hear about the duel? - You had to go through that too. The one thing I thank God for is he wasn't killed. Why? Killing a mad dog is a good thing. It's evil to kill a man. It's wrong. But why is it wrong? It's not up to men to judge what is right and what is wrong. Men will always be wrong, and never so wrong as when they decide what's right and wrong. Anything that does harm to another man is wrong. How can you be sure what will do harm to another man? Personally, I know of only two real evils in life: Remorse and sickness. And happiness is the absence of those two evils. To live for one's self in such a way as to avoid these two evils is my whole philosophy now. But how can anyone live for himself alone? No, no, I couldn't live like that. I'm feeling deep in my heart that I'm part of this vast, harmonious whole. I feel that not only I cannot disappear, as nothing disappears in this world, but I have been and will be forever. This is Herder's philosophy. But it's not going to convince me. Life and death are the only convincing things. I'm only convinced when I've seen someone who's dear to me, who's close to me, toward whom I behaved wrongly and still hoped to make it right, all of a sudden suffering terrible pain and breathing her last. What on earth for? There must be some answer! Of course... I mean it's not argument that convinces me, it's setting out in life with someone you love and suddenly that someone disappears... into nothingness. You stop before that abyss and have a look down there. Just as I have done. Of course. Isn't that exactly what I've been saying? We must live. We must love. We must believe that we're not only living now on this lump of earth, but that we have lived and shall live forever, in everything. Your Highness, isn't it good? - What? - Isn't it good, Your Highness? What is he talking about? Yes, the spring, I suppose. It's true, everything is green already. So soon. The birch, the bird-cherry... And the alder is opening up. Only the oak shows no signs of life. Yes, there's the oak. Spring... Love... Happiness... Haven't you grown weary of this same stupid, meaningless delusion? It's always the same, and it's always a lie. There is no spring, no sun, and no happiness. I don't believe in your hopes and in your illusions. Yes, the oak is right, a thousand times right. Let the others, the young, to be taken in by this delusion. We who know life know that it is finished. Yet we must live out our lives, doing no harm, and not worrying or desiring anything. His obligations as trustee of the family's Ryazan estate compelled Prince Andrei to call upon the local Marshal of Nobility,
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