with you? - You, lousy hypocrite... Why? What have I done... to you? He wants to destroy your hope! That's all people have got left on this earth! It's the only place they can come to, if there's no hope left for them. You yourself have come here! Why destroy hope then? Shut up! I can see through you! You don't give a damn about people! You just make money, using our... anguish! It's not even the money. You're enjoying yourself here. You're like God Almighty here. You, a hypocritical louse, decide who is to live and who is to die. He deliberates! Now I see why you stalkers never enter the room yourselves. You revel in all that power, that mystery, your authority! What else is there to wish for? It's not true! You... you're mistaken. A stalker must not enter the room. A stalker must not even enter the Zone with an ulterior motive. Remember Porcupine? Yes, you're right, I'm a louse. I haven't done any good in this world, and I can't do any. I couldn't give anything even to my wife. I can't have any friends either. But don't take mine from me! They'd already taken everything from me back there, behind the barbed wire. So all that's mine is here. You understand? Here! In the Zone! My happiness, my freedom, my self-respect, it's all here! I bring here people like me, desperate and tormented. People who have nothing else to hope for. And I can help them! No one else can help them, only I, the louse, can! I'm so happy to be able to help them that I want to cry. And that's all. I don't want anything more. I don't know. Maybe. Anyway, excuse me, but... You're just a God's fool. You have no idea what's going on here. Why do you think Porcupine hanged himself? He came to the Zone with a mercenary motive. He made his brother die in the meat mincer because of money. I know. But why did he hang himself? Why didn't he come here again, not for money, but for his brother? In way of repenting. He wanted to... I don't know. He hanged himself a week later. Because he realized that not just any wish comes true here, but only your innermost wish. Not what would you holler at the top of your voice... Coming true here is only what's in line with your nature, with your essence, of which you know nothing. But it's there, in you, directing you all your life. You didn't understand anything, Leather Stocking. It wasn't greed that had done Porcupine in. He was crawling in this puddle, begging to bring his brother back. But what he got was only money, and he couldn't get anything else, because render unto Porcupine the things that are Porcupine's! And things like conscience, anguish, they are just inventions. He realized that and hanged himself. I'm not going to your room. I have no wish to pour my filth over somebody's head. Even yours. And then to put my neck into the noose, like Porcupine. I'd rather drink myself to death in my mansion, in peace and quiet. You don't understand anything about human beings, Chingachgook, if you take to the Zone people like me. And something else... Why do you think that this miracle really exists? Who told you that wishes actually come true here? Have you seen a single man who's been made happy here? Was it Porcupine? As a matter of fact, who told you about the Zone, about Porcupine, about that room? He did. Then it makes no sense to me at all. What's the use coming here? It's so quiet... Can you feel it? What the heck... Why not chuck it all, take my wife, Monkey, and move over here. For good. There's no one here. No one can hurt them here. So you're back. Where did you get this? He got attached to me. I couldn't leave him there. Well, shall we go? Monkey is waiting. Are you coming? Does any one of you need a dog? I've got five of them at home. So you love dogs, don't you? What? That's very good. All right, let's go. You can't even imagine how tired I am! God only knows!
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