child!
Drinking won't help,
honey.
Jesus Christ.
Look at this.
Syracuse is losing.
I don't know
what to say.
- What?
- I just got a call from little Paulie.
Nucci gualtieri died.
Stroke on the bus back
to the home.
They had gone
to see "Jersey boys."
This is difficult.
This is pain
Like I'm not used to.
We've said before he was
like a son in some ways.
To see him die
like that...
practically
in my arms.
He was just starting
his life.
Yeah.
You know what?
- This is bullshit.
- What?
I haven't been able
to tell anybody this, but...
I'm fucking relieved.
Really?
He was a tremendous drag
on my emotions,
On my... thoughts
about the future.
Every morning
I wake up thinking,
"Is today the day that
one of my best friends
Is gonna dime me
to the FBI?"
And a weak,
fucking sniveling,
Lying drug addict? That's
the worst kind of bet.
The biggest blunder
of my career
Is now gone.
And I don't have to be
confronted by that fact no more.
And as a relative,
a friend,
Someone you can
count on...
I see.
Let me tell you
something:
I've murdered friends
before, even relatives--
My cousin Tony,
My best friend--
Puss.
But this...
was I talking
in my sleep?
Snoring.
I'm gonna put on the TV
if you don't mind.
I can't stay asleep
either. I'm all...
I mean, I can laugh and cry,
and I could always get the part.
- First time?
- First time. Never can keep it.
They got onto me
after a while.
I'd lose my voice, fall
down, get red in the face,
Talk too fast
and couldn't act.
Can you make me
a cappuccino?
That fucking machine from Paulie,
you need a pilot's license.
It's so hard not to think of
Christopher as a child, isn't it?
Caity kind of looks likeim,
which makes it doubly hard
Of course that's not
gonna do her any favors
When she hits puberty--
That schnoz.
A lot of women
found him very attractive.
I think to myself,
How could I have ever said
those things about him,
About him and adriana, what
her mother said he did to her?
Obviously he was violent as an adult.
His upbringing,
but he adored Ade.
He could never let
himself take her life.
Why are we
so quick to blame?
What is
the attraction in that?
It's good.
Thank you.
When I called you...
the night after
the accident,
And you asked me,
"Oh my God, Tony,
he's dead?"
Yeah.
And I thought--
Well, I thought
I picked up a twinge of...
- relief.
- What?
It just seemed like--
I don't know--
How could you say that? You don't
know what you're talking about.
Okay, good, I'm wrong.
Maybe if you did pick up
something like that,
Maybe it's because
I warelieved...
that it was him
and not you.
Well, don't feel bad about
that. That makes sense.
To be going down
to the hospital again
At 2:00 in the morning?
And you know what?
When you were shot,
It was Christopher
who held me.
You know
the baby's car seat?
A giant tree branch
came through the window
And demolished it.
She would have
been dead, caitlin,
Mangled beyond
recognition.
I told her about
the baby seat
So she wouldn't
feel so rotten.
I mean, he was high as a fucking
kite. I didn't tell her that.
In retrospect,
maybe not the best approach.
Right,
I'm the asshole... again.
What?
No, go ahead.
It's amazing
how things work.
His mother,
cousin joanne,
A lush.
Totally abandoned him
as a parent,
But now she's reaping
all the sympathy
And the tears.
How are you doing,
Anthony?
There have been
some hard moments.
But a weak,
lying drug at
Who fantasized
about my downfall,
Who even showed people
his filthy thoughts
On a movie screen...?
Let me tell you something:
I've seen friends die before,
Accidents,
Even murder.
My cousin Tony,
they shot his face away.
And I was fucking
prostate with grief.
But this?
I see.
And it occurs to me,
I hand-Carried this kid
Through the worst
crisis he ever had.
I can't go
into particulars, but...
wives, girlfriends,
They can complicate life
in a